Hello everyone…it is with great privilege and humility that I come to share my heart and thoughts with you today. I am not going to share with you my salvation testimony of how I came to the Lord, because it would take too much time so I will save that for another occasion, but I do want to share with you all that I have seen and heard, and the glorious grace of God that has kept me and brought me to the place where I am at today. A glimpse into my walk with God and this journey, this season of my life, this blessed avenue that God has positioned me on.
Like many seasons in my life, it begins with a new journal, and a prayer to go with it….right around the time of our transition out of our previous church and into the renewed commitment of doing God's work that He had called us to do…even if I had no idea what that meant or where we would be…
I had to trust in the vision and heart that God had given to my husband and enter into something that I had never known, starting a church, or as we call it church planting. With the measure of faith that I had, I prayed in this way:
Lord, let the words I write in this journal bring me to a closer understanding of your heart, and may its words be expressions of your truth. May I draw near to You while you may be found. That I may seek you with all of my heart as I am passing through….may your Words bring times of refreshing and joy. In Jesus Name I pray, Amen.
Well, as God would have it…as we were praying for our hearts to be ready and about our living situation (which had always been a concern) this was the devotional that came from God:
In the same way, any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be my disciples. Luke 14:33
If I wanted to live for God, follow after Christ, it would require everything of me, of us. I knew that but this time tested us even more…I had to depend even more on my faith in God to sustain me. Even my husband, Pastor Hoonie could not comfort me or bring me peace on it. I had to go through it on my own. And the more I sat in the truth of it, I realized that it cost God everything, it cost Him His Son, infringement upon His holiness, unconditional love towards us, and He asks no more or no less of us but exactly the same. We are asked to do and to live as Christ did. I had forgotten something important in the midst of it though, and so of course there were times I got discouraged and failed….I had forgotten that Christ did not do it alone, He had the love and support of the Father. I was not doing it alone, I had the love and support of the Father, and the Spirit to guide me. God was faithful to the measure that I was faithful.
So the days of gearing up and spurring one another on towards God's good, and the anticipation of what lied ahead came next. It was unchartered territory for those who came with us, the majority of who you see here today, the ones who chose to come with us. The first major thing on our list was housing, getting us closer to the area where we wanted to minister to the hearts of people and ultimately to reach out to the Stanford campus. And with every new challenge comes prayer and waiting….sometimes more then other times…at least in my own mind. All the praying finally resulted in an answer, a place had been found, and in the most unlikely way. Through relationship and through a need, God supplied one need, a bed to rest on, and through it met another need, a resting place for us. This is where I direct you to talk with Hyan if you have not already heard her share about how we came to enter into Morgan House….
As we were praying about a new place to live, I felt anxious and a little nervous inside, and God who knows me (how literal I can sometimes be) and loves me so much gave me these words to dwell on: The words of Paul to the people of the city of Athens, a city full of idols and false teaching….
23 for as I was passing through and considering the objects of your worship, I even found an altar with this inscription: TO THE UNKNOWN GOD. Therefore, the One whom you worship without knowing, Him I proclaim to you: 24 "God, who made the world and everything in it, since He is Lord of heaven and earth, does not dwell in temples made with hands. 25 Nor is He worshiped with men's hands, as though He needed anything, since He gives to all life, breath, and all things. 26 And He has made from one blood every nation of men to dwell on all the face of the earth, and has determined their preappointed times and the boundaries of their dwellings, 27 so that they should seek the Lord, in the hope that they might grope for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us; 28 for in Him we live and move and have our being, as also some of your own poets have said, 'For we are also His offspring.' Acts 17:23-28
The God of the heavens and the earth was reassuring me…He was granting me a promise to keep me in the boundaries of His love and a hope. It was a spiritual thing…and by His spirit He was connecting the dots for me, to see His greater picture, how He wanted it to look, not my poor version of it. We moved into Morgan House on May 11, 2013, Mother's Day weekend. The best mother's day gift thus far. And we began the habit of meeting daily starting the following week. Don't get me wrong, it was not all easy and move-in ready….so much sweat, toil and even blood went into the making of the Morgan House that you see today. God kept us faithful to the work, beautifying and sanctifying His place of worship, where the hearts of those who love Him would gather. God was faithful to the measure that we were faithful…
And through the work of the home, came a working out of our faith…a small glimpse into what the fellowship of believers like in Acts chapter 2 really looks like in real life, real time, And they continued steadfastly in the apostles' doctrine and fellowship, in the breaking of bread, and in prayers. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. Acts 2:42, 46,47
And thus, came to be Morgan House…in it we have moved and lived and had our being…I have matured so much through the spiritual lessons of this physical house. Tangible gift of God's grace and love. So with this new place we wanted to call it something…The meaning behind the name 'Morgan House' is twofold. One we wanted to give it a name since it was to be the common meeting place, and two with the name reveal its purpose. As I looked for different names and ideas…I researched the meaning behind the name Morgan…the Celtic meaning is 'one who dwells by the sea' People with this name have a deep inner need for quiet, and a desire to understand and analyze the world they live in, and to learn the deeper truths of it. So we anointed the house as "Morgan House": A place to dwell and find rest in Him, that we could be made effective and trained fishers of men. We would dwell by the sea, have mountain views and sunny vales surrounding us. Seeking the deeper truths of God….here.
And this was the prayer I prayed:
Lord, This place has been ordained by you, given to us for your good works. May it be a refuge for those who need rest for their weary souls and may it be a lighthouse pointing the way to life through Jesus Christ Your Son. May this home be a tool for us to build up your kingdom on earth and build up your holy fellowship. We strive to be like Jesus. All this in Jesus Name I pray, Amen.
God was faithful and once again prayers were answered…we saw a soul come to Christ in this house that very same week. And God continued to pour out His blessings through this place. Every time I wanted to grumble or complain, I just had to look at the home and it reminded me of all the love I have from Him and from those around me. The small little things were the most humbling…Cups from a sister, cleaning supplies from another, various pieces of furniture, tokens of affection to my children, each thing a reminder of God's grace, tangible items of love for the home, for me to use and to be thankful…And God did not stop there….he wanted to connect even more dots for me….
In Sept. we had the opportunity to attend a local SBC conference and the speaker there Pastor Johnny Hunt just brought the truth home to my heart. Churches all over are dying, they are simply shutting their doors for lack of life in them…and some churches would rather die then change. So what could we as a church now do to prevent this? Well for one, stop just defining the Gospel, but now was the time to share it…to make it known. How? Through the church, the very vehicle in which Acts is all about. Confidence in the Word, in the message to make it known…..and here was the Amen moment for me….it is not about location, location, location but about position, position, position! Just like the verses God had given me to meditate on in the book of Acts, where had I positioned myself? Was I positioned to do things for God? Was my heart in the right place?
Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. Luke 18:1
The reality was that I thought I had been praying for a home where we could dwell and do things for God, a home, to live and move and have our being….but I had missed these two important words…IN HIM. In Christ do I live and move and have my being, not because of the location I am at but because of the position He has given me. I am His child and I have been called to live for Him. He dwells within the confines of this small wretched heart and yet uses me to be a part of His amazing works. Jesus Christ came to save, and He never requests of us what he Himself did not already go through. So no matter how great or small my faith is, it is Christ in me that matters. If I position myself to be pleasing to God and have the same genuine heartfelt desires as Christ then I am positioned for His glory no matter where I am at. This house has brought about so many good things, good and perfect gifts of God…new memories, new friendships, new hopes, new goals, and of course new lives in Christ. All this to speak of His glory and what He can do when He brings His people together for the good of His purposes. The word 'position' will never be the same again for me. It is a doing of God, so that in the place that I am at, until I get to my final home in heaven with Him, I can live and move and have my being. IN HIM is what makes the difference…In HIM, IN Christ can I do all things. I have found freedom in the borders of Morgan House, where God reigns, and I can't wait to keep on testing and proving His Words and seeing how He connects the dots, and to do it with all of you my spiritual family in Christ.
To close I want to leave you with this final word which keeps me grounded and positioned for Him: Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, 2 looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:1,2
This is our starting point, our start is today….Avenue Baptist Church let's finish well….lets be able to say that we are Overcomers!! And have lives that show it….hitting the Mark, and no turning back, pressing on towards the goal which God has called us heavenward in Christ Jesus.